I just woke from a dream where I was left stranded pretty far out in the ocean, and a dolphin came along, nudged me onto his back, and carried me back to shore.
You can't help but see the subconscious in that.
I have a sort of strange request: I don't know how much you know about reiki, but I've seen it in action (felt it in action, even) - and I believe in its capabilities. Around 9am EST this morning, a whole wonderful group of reiki masters from around the world will be joining together and focusing healing energy on little monkey.
I believe prayer is another form of this energy, and I believe positive energy - as much as I'm not feeling all too positive lately - can do so much for the world. Even if you don't believe in reiki, could you maybe stop and say a little prayer or send some hopeful energy of your own at about 9? (Though, we'll take it just about any time, anywhere.) At this point, I imagine it can't hurt, right?
It's 4:30 in the morning and I can't sleep anymore. I had a rough, rough evening. Luckily, a coworker was still around to scoop me up and take care of me for a little bit. I wandered the grocery store until I knew Jay was going to be home. I've never in my life needed people so much, but I didn't want to be around anyone and I couldn't stomach being by myself (my parents were stranded in NY because of the awful, awful rain). What's a girl to do? So food shopping at a fairly new-to-me store it was - lots of people, none of whom know me or what's going on, no routine, lots of distractions. Needless to say, I came home with these little brownie-whipped cream concoctions they had in the bakery. Jay came home moments later and took care of me, which I'm so grateful for, because he needs to be taken care of, too, right now.
I'm going to try to sleep a little bit more - being surrounded by the kids at work is the best therapy right now, though they definitely require more energy than I have - so I need all the rest I can get!
Please - if you're around and you remember, even if it's just a little kiss blown his way - send some love around 9? Thanks.
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I made it into work this morning. There was a bit of a scare with cramping and spotting after I woke up. I hadn't felt little monkey moving around, either, so I was in a bit of a panic. But the achiness has gone away and he's kicking a bit, so I'm just watching things very closely.
My friend Matt showed up yesterday with a huge hug and a gift - tickets to the movies and quite a bit towards dinner at a restaurant of our choice. I still get a bit choked up when I think about it. He made us promise to take some time for ourselves. After, I met up with Erin for dinner, pregnant-lady chat and general silly gossip. It was wonderful to see her, and even more wonderful to relax and have a good time. In-between, there were emails and phone calls of support and love (and promises to come up here at the drop of a hat, we just needed to say the word).
We truly have some of the most amazing friends.
So I'm here and I've given myself permission to take it one class at a time. I felt a bit more positive this morning, so here's to making it through the day. And when I need it, I can come back and read this tidbit from a Reiki list (they're all getting together tomorrow to send healing energy to me and monkey) - it makes me giggle:
Sending all the Reiki Angels we can muster to the "Little Monkey" who will have a "Reiki Angel's Heart!" If he's kicking like a little monkey then you can bet he will hit the ground running & swinging when he arrives! Maybe even beating his chest & yodeling like Tarzan!
It's just such a silly image in my head, I can't help but smile. Our little Tarzan. How cute.
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