Hi all.
Sorry for the radio silence yesterday. Sometimes I get so wrapped up in what's going on that I forget about the outside world.
Sammy is doing really well. Exceptionally, actually. It makes me so nervous to say that, but the nurses and doctors are all really, really pleased with the progress he's making. They expect to close his chest today - a day earlier than what's usually done. Otherwise, he's still on the paralytic and still sedated and just going along with what the machines and medicines tell him to do. It's hard for me to see him like this - on a ventilator, tubes everywhere. They're going to slowly wake him up, too - which is good - but the tubes will be in for a while. It kills me to think of that little hand moving up to his face (he LOVES having his hands by his face) and constantly bumping into all the things in the way. He's still puffy, too, though not nearly as bad as they normally see, but it's hard to look at those little lips so swollen and not like before.
So yeah, Mama's having a bit of a tough time. Yesterday, they told us it would be a good day to go home for a few hours and take care of some things, so we did. While we were home, my feet (which have been ridiculously swollen anyway) went into hypermode, swelling to double what they've been - and unevenly at that. This landed us in triage for several hours while they ran bloodwork and did an ultrasound to check for clots. Luckily, everything came back fine, but at that point we had been away from him for hours longer than we had anticipated, and I had a bit of a nervous breakdown.
So Mama's got strict orders to keep her feet up for a while. Mama thinks she needs a stiff cocktail of Zoloft and a sedative while she's at it - at least until he's awake and moving and a little further away from all the wires and tubes. (Mama needs to stop talking about herself in the third person, though calling herself Mama is kinda fun.) Mama thinks postpartum hormones are kicking into overdrive now that the adrenaline's wearing down.
Mama just wants to take him home all better already.
Anyway - I'll try to update this evening after his chest is closed and they start to wake him up a little.
(Edited at 11:50am: They're not closing his chest today - we're not sure of the reason, but it's not for a lack of progress. They stopped the paralytics, so he should be moving around a little bit sometime soon.)